I have never been one to have regrets in life, and I have LIVED. I don't know what is going on with my lately, but all I can think about it what I should've done, and what I didn't do. I am almost 28, and what do I really have to show for it? I have a beautiful daughter, that I wouldnt trade for anything in this world. I grew up in a single home though, and always knew I would give my kids more. But, at the end of the day- I can't. It breaks my heart daily that I can't give my daughter the things she wants and deserves. I know it's beyond the material things, and I know without a doubt I provide a loving and stable home for her, which is way more than I had. But, at the end of the day- I have a huge sense of guilt that she doesnt even have the family she deserves.
I have always sensed that I was meant for something greater. Maybe it's my adventurous spirit, maybe it's the ambition. It scares me that I am nearing 30, and I am nowhere in life that I want to be. I know I am in control of my own destiny, but I am finally taking a long look at my life right now and I don't feel so comfortable where I am.
Wishing I had some family to lean on right now....
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