Lissie

Really feeling her right now. Check it out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6i7jNwv_3oc&feature=channel

shouldn't-I-be-past-my-quarter-life-crisis?

I have never been one to have regrets in life, and I have LIVED. I don't know what is going on with my lately, but all I can think about it what I should've done, and what I didn't do. I am almost 28, and what do I really have to show for it? I have a beautiful daughter, that I wouldnt trade for anything in this world. I grew up in a single home though, and always knew I would give my kids more. But, at the end of the day- I can't. It breaks my heart daily that I can't give my daughter the things she wants and deserves. I know it's beyond the material things, and I know without a doubt I provide a loving and stable home for her, which is way more than I had. But, at the end of the day- I have a huge sense of guilt that she doesnt even have the family she deserves.

I have always sensed that I was meant for something greater. Maybe it's my adventurous spirit, maybe it's the ambition.  It scares me that I am nearing 30, and I am nowhere in life that I want to be. I know I am in control of my own destiny, but I am finally taking a long look at my life right now and I don't feel so comfortable where I am.

Wishing I had some family to lean on right now....

Weekend wrap up

I planned to go to Houston this past weekend for a friends baby shower. I was going to leave after work on Friday, but got a wrench in my plans when I found out I had to go to court to be a witness in a grand jury case. More to come of that later after it is all settled. I left Wednesday after work, and after court got to have a little fun.

We got to stay with Julie, and we were able to spend a lot of quality time together. We took the kids to the pool one day and ate yummy enchiladas at home. That evening after the kids went to sleep, Julie and I ran around and did some late night shopping. It was a lot of fun. I miss having that with my best. :( On Friday, we all drove to Surfside and enjoyed a wonderful afternoon at the beach. Taryn has only been to the beach once before, when she was 6 months old- and that was just to stick her toes in the water. Taryn was scared at first, but quickly got over it. I am so happy that I was able to let Taryn enjoy something I cherish from my childhood. I told Julie, I bet my Meme was smiling down from Heaven. Taryn picked lots of seashells to bring home. Friday evening, we went and stayed with Hot Bangs and just got to hang out. I was pretty lame, as I was talking to my new boyfriend a lot! Honeymoon phase for sure.

The baby shower got cancelled due to the mom-to-be having to go to the hospital for contractions, so we decided to head back to Austin a day early. I was uber tired, but had plans to hang out with the boy after he got off work at midnight. When I put Taryn to bed, I decided to take a nap until D got off work. We ended up staying up until 3:30. I love his company, even when we do nothing. It is so enjoyable to spend time with him.

Today was spent scouring the web for money saving ideas. Thanks, Julie! I am turning over a new leaf and going to be more conscience of my spending.

Hope you all have a fabulous week ahead!

design ideas

In 2003, I got a hand-painted pitcher in Sarasota, Florida when I went there for Spring Break with my best friend. I have toted that thing around with me through all my moves over the years. I have always wanted to base my kitchen around it. It is cobalt blue, and sunflower yellow. I have gradually been adding items, but I have a huge kitchen and dining area in my new apartment, and I really want to do more.

I want to add a sideboard like this in my dining area:

And, paint it cobalt blue

Then add Spanish inspired hardware like this to it

I've been searching Craigslist for one that I can do on the cheap as a DIY, so I will keep you posted with my progress.

the good life

Ahhhhh... I could get used to this. I am blogging on my new laptop at my kitchen table, while enjoying a cup of coffee. Taryn is in the living room watching cartoons, and we are waiting for my friends daughter, Audrey to get here. I am off for the day, and Im gonna watch the 2 girls. Taryn's school is closed for Spring Break, and my friend has been helping me watching her this week, but she has to go to work herself today. The weather is going to be great today, I think we will spend some time outside and play with some new sidewalk chalk I bought for Taryn.  

Later this afternoon, my stepdad and sister are coming in town. They are heading to San Antonio tomorrow to go to Fiesta Texas, but they are making a pit stop to come visit us for the night. I am so excited! Gonna post some recent pictures soon!

Hope everyone has a fabulous Thursday!

Dating again

I recently decided I am going to join Eharmony again! I signed up last week, and I have been casually chatting with several guys via Eharmony's email, but one stands out. We have exchanged personal emails, and talked on the phone for the first time last night. He is so refreshingly different from any other guy I have ever talked to. He puts his thoughts into words so well. Today he asked me on a date, so I think we are going out sometime next week. I'm looking forward to it! :)

Quitting cold turkey

So, I have decided that I need to quit my Starbucks habit! I need to save some money ASAP. I recently bought an espresso machine, and was warned by a friend that I would still rely on Starbucks for my caffiene fix because it would take 15 minutes to make a drink! Boy, was she right! I think something is wrong with the machine too, becuase it leaks water and spits out a ton of steam. I am goign to return it and get something better.

My sister made me a deal I couldn't pass up recently. She traded me her Keurig coffee maker for my old Chucks! Sweet! I haven't had Starbucks for 2 days. $10 extra in my pocket! Anyone else try out a Keurig? They are amazing.